Note: I wrote this on my earlier blog hosted as http://parallelspirals.blogspot.com/. I recovered the text from the WayBack Machine. This post appeared on Ocober 12, 2006 as per the timestamp. I’m trying to collect here again all my old writings spread on various blogs.
I think about many things at the same time. I get good ideas on many things at the same time. And in the process of writing one down I forget the another. This process is caused by restlessness. I am restless to write down that new idea. Somehow, this feature seems to be integrated into my body functions.
While studying one subject another line of thought goes through the beauty of another mathematical derivation. The thing is I am conscious of it both at the same time. This leads to lesser retention and weaker long term memory. Hell, I can’t even remember what was thought yesterday because of this.
This is a very quiet form of restlessness.
I have tried another form of meditation. Thinking of everything at the same time as a point instead of thinking of a point as a point. This only seems to lead to further distortion. The other form of meditation, I cannot do, because when I do it, I am not aware of only the two but all the different streams of thought flowing through my mind.